This is Shruti from the Delta batch and I request the guidance from the Amarantos family. Please be warned this case is extremely personal and can be sensitive to read but be assured I have taken some courage to share my own case.
Something happened in the class room when The Master @venu ji was guiding through the Progressive Relaxation for our batch together. I have hearing problem and I wear hearing aids in ears which help me listen well. Surprisingly I heard some inner voice that day and I felt that I was pulled away to visit one the moment from the past life.
I suddenly felt suffocated as if someone’s hands were on my throat. Later I realised that I was being touched inappropriately by four men at the same time. I was shivering, shaking, crying uncontrollably and yet I didn’t open my eyes. The shaking of my body was too severe that Neha Ji came to my rescue during the process. I felt comforted that I am with the Masters around me. I felt too helpless as I wanted to escape that moment. I felt I wanted to speak and shout for help but four pairs of hands all over me made me feel weak. Once they were done with me either I ended my life that moment or the whole incident killed me. To my horror I recognised two out of four men in that incident. One of them is my father in this life time and other is first relative.
Since this was just one memory I got pulled into, I thought forgiving myself for feeling victim would be enough for me. But I feel I need to do lot more than this and I seek guidance and suggestions from my loving family here. If I have to revisit that same life time what possible theme should I work with or how to exactly visit the same life time to take the lessons that I need to learn.
I am extremely blessed and grateful for any support I can get in this regards.
Thank you @venu ji once again for creating the platform for us to express ourselves freely.