I started writing this a day before I had farewell at an organization where I worked for nine years and I was all over the places with my thoughts. This was my first time dealing with resignation but I was happy that I heard my calling and want to be a catalyst in healing journey of others who need it. I was running the conversations that would happen and should I tell the honest reason about my plans post resignation. I had different stories running in my mind of how I would evade the truth and give some convincing lies to get away with.
But when I met my old colleagues I felt possessed by the power of the truth because the glow of self work is always evident on face even when you don’t give it away. I surrendered myself to that “courage” that suddenly erupted and led me to share my stories without the shame of being judged. From someone who was totally on backseat and quiet about own feelings, I felt like I was suddenly wearing tiara of confidence. I shared about the self work I have been doing and shared my experiences with past life regression as well. I became the hero of my own healing journey even with painful regressions; the hold of that pain was not visible in my body language. The “courage” of truth was empowering me all over and few people who understood the importance of emotional well-being and mental health were keen to connect with me.
Allow me to share the reason behind this new found and claimed “Courage” from one of the regression experience I had with my batch mates. The theme of this regression was to find love and my divine life partner. Here the recollections from that experience-
The first scene opened as staring in eyes and the pair of eyes staring back at me. Those were Tiger’s eyes and I felt so powerful to stare back in its eyes without fear. It felt like being scared was not even an option. Despite holding such daring bold energy, I was also trembling a bit during those moments. I was a woman who was part of some ancient tribe on an island which was cut off from the rest of the World. I was aware of some knowledge on how to use spearhead kind of weapon to hunt animals. Apart from hunting, I felt there was some different kind of connection that I shared with animals. The “Motto” of the tribe was that I had to be bold and courageous because if you are weak you will be killed. I have faint memories that it was really beautiful place with crystal clear white sand and unpolluted blue sea water surrounding that Island. It was isolated from the rest of the World.
Next moment I was hiding behind some bamboo trees and there was one boat by the beach shore. I was very confused whether I should escape the Island or not. I was full of aspirations to go out of the shell and discover what the rest of the World could be like. I had no knowledge on about how to go about it. No one else ever felt the need to leave and no one was “allowed” to leave else they would be killed. It was huge burning desire for me to step out and explore the World around us. I felt there was someone (probably some male) who was stalking my movements while I was looking at that boat to escape.
Lastly, I saw my life ending with spearhead in belly button and it happened because I took the courage to leave the comfort zone of my home. I followed the golden ball of light after ending my time in that life time. It was childlike curiosity to follow the light.
When the facilitator asked me what the message was for me from that life time, I quoted these-
- I am courageous
- No one can stop me from doing what I want to do
- I am not afraid of anyone
I felt bit disappointed after this regression because I was seeking answers on different theme. I was expecting more but I didn’t complain and thought maybe I will understand the reason some other time. However the simple messages seemed to be like, I could never imagine what awaited me after that experience.
It’s been almost a month since that experience and I think I can’t count the times where all I used that iota of “courage” in my day to day life. Sharing few of the takeaways from the times I keep using that endless quota of “courage”-
*Power to say No- In fear of not hurting the other person even though it may require my investment of my time and energy; it was very hard to say “No”. I learnt it hard way by being blunt but politely saying No when I needed to. I learnt to maintain distance from friends needed me but I couldn’t be there all the times because of any reason.
Created boundaries with Energy Vampires- There are people whose toxic behaviors suffocate me and I used the strength from that courage to show them the exit door. I let go of the people who were just not meant for alignment with the highest good.
Power of Truth – Truth is liberating. “ The truth is effortless.” It takes a lot of courage to go with truth especially when you know the listeners won’t understand it even. But the fact is that the truth is yours and you carry it all around yourself without any shame or fear of being judged. Sharing about my healing journey set me free from worrying about the alternative stories that I would have had to create and remember. Showing the courage to show up for yourself is not something others can really understand but that’s not my responsibility.
Pause & Don’t Judge – Easiest example from would be to assume the tone of the message (online) which sounds like questioning you. It’s easier to respond in haste and put the anger to work on damaging the relationship even if it was just a polite enquiry. It takes patience and courage to pause and not react. I tried kindness and received it back too.
*Welcomed Miracles- When I took stand for myself and let go of people and energy not meant for me, there was new space created for something better. For example- I had to let go of old friends and this allowed me to welcome prospective clients without even putting advertisement or business page. It’s like creating space for miracles to happen.
*Courage to take risk and follow my heart- Sometimes what our heart craves for requires some courage and guts to follow that. Living your dream is never so easy and to face those challenges with confidence require courage and I have this gift from one of the old lifetime. I probably had this gift hidden in my soul but the regression brought it to surface.
It feels like self love was wrapped in courage or is it courage wrapped in self love. I would leave this to you to figure out. Finding love doesn’t mean looking for someone to love you more than you can love yourself. You are enough to give all the love you need. Your life partner maybe the “fertilizer” that will boost your growth but all the main nutrition to your soul comes from self love.
While concluding I would say that no one comes empty handed from regression experience. The answers may not be in the form as you expect. Our soul brings only those messages which we are ready to understand when we poise that particular question.